Finding a photo of my sister that I had never seen before is truly the greatest gift. For a moment it feels like she is here and I am able to see her in a new way. It is so easy to take for granted the fact that when we see someone we love we don't necessarily know what they will be wearing, how their hair will be styled, what the expression on their face will be... When the people we love are no longer here it is painful to realize that we won't be able to see them in that 'new' way again, all that remains are the memories, the photos and things.
I love this photo of Shari. I found it on her Facebook account months ago and it took my breath away. It reminds me of childhood moments with her, walking through the woods on our parent's farm. I believe an old boyfriend of her's took this photo, I wasn't there when it was taken. I even love that it is slightly blurry, that she is moving, that she is smiling, so beautiful and alive. I love the caption she put on it: "Me running from the grizzly, putting on a brave face." I miss her sense of humour, I miss everything about her... I hope I find more photos that I have never seen before.
We lost you two years ago today, and the missing is unbearable.